Me.

I was tired yesterday, so I took a nap. And what did I wake up to? Laughing and phlemy coughing and repeated questions like "Well do you want to got to the store? You know you need to get medicine so get up!!!" The questions kept getting answered with a "No!!!" My brother had a fever and his boyfriend was here at my pad trying to convince my brother to go to his house and to go to the store for some medicine. You see my bro got into a situation and can no longer live with his boyfriend in the house he stays in....so where is he staying now? Here. In my space. It's all I've got and I've been trying my hardest to be understanding but this is ridiculos. Like I said, I was TIRED. I lay there trying to keep my cool, yet the LOUD laughter continues and seems to be escelating. I could'nt help it. "Josh can you keep it down I'm trying to sleep and I didn't fucking bother you when you' ve been sleeping for the past TWO days!" With that, the laughter stopped and my Bro's BF and his friend left muttering apologies as they left my room. My brother walked them to their car and when he came into MY ROOM he went about kicking things in anger in fustration.

Now WAIT A FUCKING MINUTE! Are you serious? YOUR gonna kick MY SHIT around MY ROOM because I asked for you and your friends to lower your voices? Hold Up! No way!!! Honestly when ppl come into my space like that and begin to have no regards for the fact that I NEED MY SPACE FROM THE WORLD then maybe it's best he leaves. I don't care that he's sick, I don't care that he's "hurting" cause he's away from his BF, I do not care for the fact that he COMPLETLY spoiled and used to things going HIS way. No motherfucker, I'm not gonna be playing all that shit. And I told him that the very first day that he stayed here. I don't want him here anymore. He may be able to throw fits and get away with it with everybody else, but I'm not allowing that. He's 26 and acting like a 12 year old that cannot take care of himself, and that, to be blunt, pisses me off. I mean, I'm 18 and I take the fucking disgusting raunchy bus EVERY morning to work. He has his BF wake up at the crack of dawn and drive 20 min to pick him uo and drive another 20 min to drive him to work. I BUST my ass to get what I want and need, while he gets anything he wants from his BF. He needs to grow up. He sleeps all day and bitches non stop, he's not happy, yet he does nothing to change his situation. My Mom was like that for years and I HATED being around her. She moved out and left me here 11 months ago and now it seems that she came back in the form of my Brother. I don't want this. I want to be able to come home and relax. Not come home angry because I have to deal with THAT shit.